We hope dream and make our plans but the future belongs in God's hands!!!! :)

Please pray.... I was down most of the past week with severe back-pain/spasms (due 2 a new medication we tried)!!! It was quite frustrating to say the least, but I'm happy to report the pain has decreased immensely and seems to have pretty much left, although the increase of movements that also came with have not totally subsided. I wasn't feeling the best today, but feel the need to 'get out' again!!!! I really want to go to school tomorrow! Especially pray that I could have the 'get go' to be there and get something done. One of the meds I started taking for my back the beginning of Dec. makes me feel VERY draggy especially mornings. It's frustrating because it slows me down to the point that I don't get out to school till late and makes it difficult to get a whole done!!! :(

I have plans to meet with my nutritionist Wednesday! Pray that God would grant much direction and wisdom with the appointment. I will try to give a more detailed update of my meeting last Monday along with the outcome of the meeting tomorrow later this week.

Thanks so much for the encouragement and prayers sent my way!!! :)))

Something I read this morning.......
*Your thoughts are not His thoughts.* ~Give your expectations of others and your circumstances over to Him. Let Him orchestrate all the details. His plans may not be your plans. He sees the big picture. He knows the end of the story.~

This was just what I needed!!!! :) We have plans to go to lancaster on Monday to meet with another doctor (2nd opinion)!!! While I'm excited about getting a perspective from someone who is.... ,could I say, 'out of the loop' or someone who hasn't seen me and hasn't had much contact whatsoever with any of my other doctors, I'm also a bit apprehensive!!! It feels a bit like 'opening a whole new can of worms'!!!! I'm hoping the 'can of worms' is a good one!!!!! wellll ok i should say as good as a can of worms can be!!!;;;;)))) At any rate I would appreciate your prayers!!!! My appointment is at 1:00, and yes, I will try to update the status as soon as possible!:))

When the going gets tough, the tough hang on to Jesus!!!

Yes, I was back in school this week!!! I went Tuesday thru Thursday!!! It was great being back!!! I went in between 9:30-11:30, giving me a chance to still get a decent amount of sleep which is quite needful!!!

I'm not sure why, but it just seems this flu just doesn't want to go away!! :(( It's frustrating to say the least. Thankfully ibuprofen usually knocks it for me, but I've had it off and on for at least a month now!! I tried the whole thing of staying home and taking it easy till I thought I was going to go crazy from social life deprivaty!!!:)))) It didn't seem to do much so I decided I may as well get out and do something. The problem is, I still have fever, stomach ache, head ache, sore throat, tight muscles, and I don't know what all else off and on. Sometimes I feel perfectly fine and the next time I don't!!!! I mean sure I can take ibuprofen to knock it, but how long is that going to last and besides it kind of feels like I'm sitting at one place just spinning my wheels. Sick, take something, knocks it ya but doesn't seem like I'm making progress which can get frustrating, and it still feels like the tiredness and irratableness levels go way up much too quickly!!! Please pray that God would grant wisdom and direction as we try to discern what to do... I can't just go on like this forever!!! Especially pray that when I do have bad days, that I would allow God to lift me above the cloud of discouragement and hopelessness!!!! I find it so amazing what prayer can do!!! There are many times when things just are not working out the way I want them to and I must make the choice... ask God to help me find joy despite the circumstance, or I can become discouraged and lock into a 'poor me' frame of mind!!!! Sadly I've done both!!! It brings tears when I think of the times I chose to pray for grace and strength, just giving God the disappointments that come my way and the JOY and PEACE He sends my way!!! It's indescribable!!! Oh, and may I say it doesn't usually take one short little prayer, oh no, it takes many prayers, don't think for one minute that the devil gives up that easy!!! Rather, remember, God's well of grace and strength for me, for you, NEVER runs dry!!! I find that so comforting!!! This week, as you go through out your daily chores, whenever, wherever, and however you are... if you feel the devil pulling you into a downward spiral, just ask God to help you to think positive!!:))) Remember, God hears even the faintest cry for help and He LOVES when His children call out to Him!!!

I've made up my mind.......IT's time to go back to school!!!! I can go hang out with friends and do pretty much anything I want, but.... whenever the thought of going to school is mentioned, well I'm just too sick!!!!! HHHmmm sounds kind of like a mind thing there!!!! I think I've become too lazy, after all who doesn't like just relaxing at home and taking it easy and when fun things show up tear into them????!!!! lol It's time to get my mind off 'me' and 'I'm sick' and do something worthwhile!!! Too much time to think about problems on hand is never good for anyone!!! It's Scary all the things you can make yourself believe if you think about them long enough!!!! Determination MUST resume and I must quit allowing discouraging thoughts harbor in my mind to the point of believing them!!!

*I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13