How can it really be August and almost September? Where did the summer go?!!! The exciting side is... "back to school days" and that makes me HAPPY!!! Guess why? ;) Yup! You guessed right!!! I AM "back to school"!!!! Not as a student of course but as a teacher-aide/secretary. That also means I have a job!!! I am so happy and excited to see the way God provided for me!!! I was at school everyday last week. Monday-Wednesday helping to set up ect. School started on Thursday. I plan to be there Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday for right now. I am just LOVING it. I feel very blessed to have been in and out of shcool enough the last few years to know the bulk of whats happening, my brain doesn't have to try to process so many new things at once. :)
I really did thoroughly enjoy my busy summer making lots of good memories, hanging out with friends, connecting with family and just kinda doing things at my own leisure. Looking back I am glad I didn't have a job. However I am looking forward to getting back into a more scheduled and somewhat slower-paced life.
On my last post I mentioned the fact that I was coming off baclofen. I feel blessed how easy it was. I am now completely off and doing just fine! My next goal is now to come off R-tain. I don't expect to come off quite as quickly as baclofen simply because it's higher dose and a stronger medication. I would appreciate your prayers. I don't exactly know why but it seems the side affects are hitting me pretty hard recently. I feel just great in the morning, but shortly after the 12 o'clock dose I can expect to feel extremely tired and just "out of it". It slows my brain down per say. I may feel that way for about an hour, then i will "snap back" again. The 2nd dose usually comes around 4 o'clock. Some days I don't feel that one as much. I take the third dose before I go to bed so that one is usually ok. It has been very frustrating and I find it easy to become a bit discouraged and down. That is where the whole school/job thing comes into play. I find it helpfull to have something to fight for. I feel needed and fulfilled at school and it gives me something other than myself and my struggles to think about.
I am currently coming off a fourth a pill each week and hoping my body will cope with that. I look forward to farther consulting with my doctor during my visit the end of September.
It is with a grateful heart that I can TRULY say that my Father really DOES know what I can handle and has been giving me many reminders in various ways that He cares about me and really just wants all my trust. I am trying to learn that even when it may be the hardest thing to do, I simply must TRUST. The peace and happiness I feel when I do just that is reallly indescribable and yet I so often find myself resisting. *"Let us pray for each other not faint by the way in this sad world of sorrow and care for that home is so bright and its almost in sight and I trust in my heart you'll go there."*
I want to close with a phrase that recently popped out at me. *It is My power that will protect you! Stand firm, with Me beside you fear will fly out the window!!!* Such an encouraging and true promise! :)
