Thanks for all the comments and encouragment! Seemed like i cried a lot today! I am thankful that the movements were very little today and the pain was almost none! But for some reason it just hit me again today that my friend Shari is getting married in a week an a half and here Iam, laying in bed instead of helping her get ready for her big day!!! I love you so much Shari! I just had to commit it to God again and again today! Sometimes the pain is almost unbearable but it is in those moments that I remember that God is hurting with me and He feels my pain!!! God has His very special ways of showing me how much He cares and today He did that through a boque of flowers, a few cards in the mail, and visitors! I have also found great comfort through song! Here are a few phrases from a song that really spoke to me today......
Blessed Be Your Name
blessed be your name when the suns shining down on me when the worlds all as it should be---blessed be your name
blessed be your name on a road marked with suffering tho there's pain in the offering---blessed be your name
-every blessing you pour out i'll turn back to praise when the darkness closes in Lord still i will say blessed be the name of the Lord blessed be your name----
-you give and take away you give and take away my heart will choose to say Lord blessed be your name.....
I am so thankful that i do not have to fight this battle alone because there is Someone much bigger than me who has it all under control and He will give me courage to face whatever He brings my way!!! :)
can't keep the tears from falling...I love you more than words can say and it hurts so much to see you hurting. On the other hand, I keep thinking about what God must have in mind for you. I may be a bit prejudiced when it comes to my nieces, :) but I thought you already were a beautiful person, inside and out, but obviously He wants to make you even more beautiful.
ReplyDeletePhilippians 1:6 Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
Praying for you.
from your [favorite] Aunt :)
Dear sister in Christ. As I laid awake this early morning, mediating in the night watches, a phrase kept coming to my mind, from Isa. 53 .... ye it pleased the Lord to bruise him..... God the Father had a special work for his child (his only begotten son) to do, and therefore God Almighty found pleasure in seeing what his child could accomplish even tho it caused pain and brusing for a time. Crystal, I'm convinced that God has a very special work cut out for you, and maybe he alone know what it is just yet, but He definitely does.
ReplyDeletei'm praying for God to grant you that which you need to accomplish his greatest work on this earth.
Hey girl--
ReplyDeleteHang in there! I'll pray for you! God bless you for the courage you are taking inspite of the circumstances! May you allow God to just take your hand in His and lead you through this valley!
Isaiah 43:1-2 But now thus saith the Lord that created thee, O Jacob, and he that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine. When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.
Have a good day! Your cousin, Melodie
I'll pray that you can go to Shari's wedding, Crystal. I like the words of the song you shared- keep looking to Jesus for your strength! His grace is sufficent for you, though it pains me to hear about your suffering. It's still hard for me to imagine you this way. Remember it takes a storm to make a rainbow! Love you, Anita
ReplyDeleteYou're in my prayers Crystal. Your attitude inspires me. You're finding good in the little things. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteLove, Mimy Rollman (your mom's cousin)