Wellll...... I have some exciting news!!!!!! I got to test my driving skills this week with my dad as the 'police'!!!! =) Thankfully he didn't require the parallel parking deal!=)=) Believe it or not I PASSED!!!!!! I may now put my license to use again....YEAHHHHH!!!! I will add that at this point it's pretty much just to school and back, but that's really all I wanted for right now.

Progress seems to continue, sometimes seems so slow it's hard to see. I am still getting muscle therapy (treatments), whatever you want to call it. This past week she worked a lot on my neck and jaw muscles, wow just reminded me again how fearfully and wonderfully our bodies are made. She found some really nasty knots in the side of my neck..... whew, I'll just say it didn't feel too good and hopefully they stay away!!!! It seems the dystonia has a mind of it's own and just is not willing to allow my muscles to relax and be normal yet. Right now I think about it most in the back of my neck, it just wants to pull it back, which is a little unhandy because you can't do a whole lot staring up at the ceiling! It's like my doctor told me, dystonia is STRONG!!!!! Which means that when it gets a hold of a muscle it pulls hard, so hard that no matter how hard I fight I have very little control. I do have a couple neck pillows that I use for support, and it does help if I put pressure on the back of my head with my hand. I'm ok if I have something hard to rest my head against because it gives it support. There are stretches I can do that help release the tension a little. However, thankfully my therapist is able to treat it or at least work with it, but it takes more than one or two treatments to get it back to normal.

I am SO thankful for the many wonderful people God has placed in my life!!!!! Words cannot say how much it means to me when people treat me like a normal person even when I don't look normal!!!! It's always scary to go places or see people that haven't seen me since I got sick, but it's good for me to get out of my comfort zone even if it's scary!!!!

Here are the words to a song I listened to this week......

(v1)Here I am before you Lord, falling at your feet
My longing is to know you more, your purpose to complete,
When I look around me it's so hard to understand,
I want to see you move Lord, I want to see your hand

chorus
Trusting you Lord does not come easily to me
Trusting you Lord I need your eyes that I might see
When the way is dark and I'm afraid and don't know what to do
help me take my eyes off me Lord and keep my eyes on you


(v2)I stand upon your promise Lord you have a plan for me
And though I may not see it yet I'll trust you faithfully
You have spoken to my heart a message strong and true
So I'll gather up my courage Lord and humbly follow you